The monsters around the dinner table.
My monsters weren’t fictional creatures who lived under the bed, they were not monsters who hid in the cupboards nor were they monsters that came out at night.
No my monsters created me.
They both had two eyes, two arms, two legs a head and a body .
My monsters didn’t go away when the sun went down. My monsters didn’t have spikes scary teeth or claws.
My monsters had breakfast, lunch and dinner like me. My monsters didn’t disappear once my imagination lesson and my mind grew. My monsters did however give me a break during school.
My monster didn’t react to monster spray or disappear. When I was quiet.
My monsters were here to stay or so I thought these monsters scared me. They were detectable from their voice their footsteps and their stare.
My monsters made me feel unsafe, scared hungry and hurt. My monsters escaped only when I slept until I became an adult then they appeared in my nightmares.
My monsters didn’t use their teeth their claws, tales, venom or fire to cause me hurt and pain.
My monsters used their hands a mixture of metal/ wooden spoons, belts, cold water showers, strangling, suffocating,withdrawal of food and not to forget the bar of soap or the liquid soap.
My monsters put on many masks for they were clever and never showed their faces until they were behind closed doors then they were terrifying no place to run no place to hide sitting ducks waiting to be found.
My monsters didn’t disappear.
Who are these monsters? You ask? Well these monsters are my parents. The ones you would find around the dinner table these monsters brought me into this world out and at times I thought these monsters were going to take me out of this world.
These monsters tortured and scared me and made my life hell ,these monsters won’t get to scare my children for the antidote to these monsters is I’ve seen them for what they are cowards, child abusers and liars.
For now I am looking under the bed in the cupboard and in the dark, my monsters are no longer present but every so often they appear in my nightmares and I just need to remember the magic words you are cowards, child abusers and liars and I am no longer scared.
I am now at the dinner table with no one to harm me and a belly full of love.
-KT
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